Sunday, January 4, 2009

fuck! it's '09 8O

Erm, not that it took me four whole days to realise.

For those you hankerin' after Grandmasta Vonday, she's taking a short break while I sift through my bookmarks to find the link. The real Vondy is currently slacking in her bigass stinkin' wire cage. Just bought her some wooden cubes and strawberry biscuits. She doesn't give a shit about the cubes and seems to hate the strawberry biscuits. OEI MARUKAN NOT CHEAP OKAY, ONE TINY BOX IS FIVE TIMES THE PRICE OF A MEDIUM-SIZED BOX OF HUMAN BISCUITS D:< So much for spoiling a one-and-a-half-year-old elderly hamster.

Uh, yes, Vondy's considered elderly folk now.

As for Kuku, he's now the official baby of the household. He just learnt how to fly, but has absolutely no sense of direction. Just a few days ago my dad made him fly... he flew up, then hit his tiny head on the ceiling and fell into a pile of newspapers by the stairs >< we rushed to his rescue, my dad cursing, "STUPID BIRD!" all the while.

And uh, '08 has been a pretty decent year for me. It hasn't been a fine year for a ton of people I know, but for me, I guess it's pretty alright, a very welcome break from '98 to '07, nine whole years of mainstream education stripping me of my sanity since childhood. This year I kinda got my freak back!

'08's a year of a couple of firsts too. We've got first year in poly, first year with no maths to struggle with, first year I have more than 5 people I call friends, first year I got singing parts for a musical (albeit a small one), first time I've liked someone with that much passion after 5 years of 5-second crushes (yes, I'm admitting it, go ahead and laugh at me, I know better than to blurt after that one nasty experience 5 years ago), first time I have a set of keys to my own house (but I always forget its presence), first time I've ever seen SNOW, what I believe to be the single most beautiful natural substance to fall on earth! AAAHHH!!! NEXT TIME I MUST MAKE SNOWMAN!!!

I've posted my resolution at my Tumblr, so I'm so not gonna repeat it here, go and read there yourself, you lazy bums.

'08 is also the year of maturation for me. For those who knew me all along, perhaps I look a lot like I'm going through some sort of spiritual retardation, but I've been feeling old for a bulk of my childhood, and in the 17th year of my existence, I feel absolutely compelled to be young and free, like how many a song has described people who are seventeen. And perhaps, it's only in accepting what I truly am that makes me feel young, yet come to an understanding that, yes, I know now.

In all my younger years, I thought I was doing the right stuff - pursuing unrealistic dreams (this, in layman's terms, is called aiming high, dreaming big, what have you), keeping cool, being part of the counterculture (or pretending to be), thinking I know the real Fangying.

But the events of '08 made me realise how stupid and pathetic I was - perhaps rightly so, how many non-stupid, non-pathetic 16-year-olds have you seen? This year, though I may be proved wrong as I continue existing, I learnt how much meaning life itself has - life is, quite plainly, meaningless and pointless.

Uh, no, I'm not being suicidal, nor am I being "realistic", you've got to see this from another angle. Life itself is meaningless and pointless - that's why every moment we're alive is precious.

Every moment you're happy, you carve out the meaning for that moment. Every moment you're not happy, you leave the moment meaningless. You only have a lifespan to accumulate as much meaning as possible, so whoever is reading my shit, stop right now and get out there and collect some meaning to your life!!! YOU FUCKTARD!

LOL LOL LOL YOU BOUGHT THAT STORY? COME ON, here's a true gem about life from Monty Python:

Life's a piece of shit, when you look at it,
Life's a laugh, and death's a joke, it's true!
You'll see it's all a show,
Keep 'em laughing as you go,
JUST REMEMBER THAT THE LAST LAUGH IS ON YOU!