I just heard from my folks yesterday that my dad may switch jobs and get posted to Tianjin for three years. If so, my mom will quit her current job and accompany my dad to China. Which means there's a possibility that I'm going to spend all my polytechnic life alone. Or perhaps with my brothers. I don't know. Make that a high possibility, since it's a really lucrative job. It's a scary thought, three whole years on my own. Since my brothers don't come home often, it means most of the time I'll be alone.
This is what you wanted, Fangying. Life, on your own. Your own life. No one to bother you about nitty-gritty things. But why are you so hesitant? Why that long face, huh?
It's just daunting.
On the other hand, my friend, independence has to come sooner or later. Why not let it come sooner. It's going to be fun.
Really?
Yeah. Think about the possibilities. Think about what lies ahead. It's a chance to show that you're not useless, like you are now. Dependent and sucking off others for food, shelter, clothes, company and life. It's time to shake off that image and that life. It's time to show what you're capable of.
But I'm scared.
No, no, don't be. It's not like it's forever. It's not as if you're gonna be left with no one. In fact it's all still uncertain. Maybe they ain't gonna go after all. Even if they do it's not like three years in a row. They'd come home once in a while. They will.
So I guess I haven't much to fear. It's starting to look like an adventure. It looks like fun.
I'm just being paranoid. Whatever happens, I think I'm just gonna take it easy. Take it easy. Take it easy. It's what I do worst in life, but I have to learn to take it easy.